music

occasionally I create haphazard instrumentals for songs I write. I am not a professional producer (though it goes without saying), but these are some examples of how I conceptualize some of my musical ideas. all instrumentals were created with Garage Band on an iPad.

HARD

for myself and my sanity

I’d conjure libido from dormancy

to create the illusion that I can toughen up

be enough and give enough

and have you approve

BUSY TONE

it's so like you to wish for much better

without even saying a word

I'd like to repair our despair and kiss perish goodbye

but I know I won't

and so you're gone

you're paragon

I'M NOT OKAY! (BUT THAT'S OKAY!)

the pain persists & 'cause of this I'm still a pessimist

so when the hard times come back around again

it's not quite a surprise, but at least the waiting ends

I've been waiting all night to feel like myself again

'cause in the daytime I commit crimes of acting like I'm fine

I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT

do you read loud and clear?

you don't, but I wish you were here

'cause every day is such a misery

without somebody here for me

is it enough for me to be a nobody?

'cause alone or with a girl or guy

won't suffice to keep me occupied

MACHINE MAN

(UNMASTERED DEMO)

Mr. Machine man, what's gotten you so militant?

for target practice you're destroying my sentiments

and I can't reload fast enough to prepare the next shot

why can't you be something different than this?

you've made me turn on myself and my life as a pacifist

couldn't you be so kind as to put me out of my misery?