occasionally I create haphazard instrumentals for songs I write. I am not a professional producer (though it goes without saying), but these are some examples of how I conceptualize some of my musical ideas. all instrumentals were created with Garage Band on an iPad.
for myself and my sanity
I’d conjure libido from dormancy
to create the illusion that I can toughen up
be enough and give enough
and have you approve
it's so like you to wish for much better
without even saying a word
I'd like to repair our despair and kiss perish goodbye
but I know I won't
and so you're gone
I'M NOT OKAY! (BUT THAT'S OKAY!)
the pain persists & 'cause of this I'm still a pessimist
so when the hard times come back around again
it's not quite a surprise, but at least the waiting ends
I've been waiting all night to feel like myself again
'cause in the daytime I commit crimes of acting like I'm fine
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT
do you read loud and clear?
you don't, but I wish you were here
'cause every day is such a misery
without somebody here for me
is it enough for me to be a nobody?
'cause alone or with a girl or guy
won't suffice to keep me occupied
Mr. Machine man, what's gotten you so militant?
for target practice you're destroying my sentiments
and I can't reload fast enough to prepare the next shot
why can't you be something different than this?
you've made me turn on myself and my life as a pacifist
couldn't you be so kind as to put me out of my misery?