music

HARD

for myself and my sanity

I’d conjure libido from dormancy

to create the illusion that I can toughen up

be enough and give enough

and have you approve

occasionally I create haphazard instrumentals for songs I write. I am not a professional producer (though it goes without saying), but these are some examples of how I conceptualize some of my musical ideas. all instrumentals were created with Garage Band on an iPad.

BUSY TONE

it's so like you to wish for much better

without even saying a word

I'd like to repair our despair and kiss perish goodbye

but I know I won't

and so you're gone

you're paragon

I'M NOT OKAY! (BUT THAT'S OKAY!)

the pain persists & 'cause of this I'm still a pessimist

so when the hard times come back around again

it's not quite a surprise, but at least the waiting ends

I've been waiting all night to feel like myself again

'cause in the daytime I commit crimes of acting like I'm fine

I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT

do you read loud and clear?

you don't, but I wish you were here

'cause every day is such a misery

without somebody here for me

is it enough for me to be a nobody?

'cause alone or with a girl or guy

won't suffice to keep me occupied

MACHINE MAN

(UNMASTERED DEMO)

Mr. Machine man, what's gotten you so militant?

for target practice you're destroying my sentiments

and I can't reload fast enough to prepare the next shot

why can't you be something different than this?

you've made me turn on myself and my life as a pacifist

couldn't you be so kind as to put me out of my misery?