for myself and my sanity
I’d conjure libido from dormancy
to create the illusion that I can toughen up
be enough and give enough
and have you approve
occasionally I create haphazard instrumentals for songs I write. I am not a professional producer (though it goes without saying), but these are some examples of how I conceptualize some of my musical ideas. all instrumentals were created with Garage Band on an iPad.
it's so like you to wish for much better
without even saying a word
I'd like to repair our despair and kiss perish goodbye
but I know I won't
and so you're gone
I'M NOT OKAY! (BUT THAT'S OKAY!)
the pain persists & 'cause of this I'm still a pessimist
so when the hard times come back around again
it's not quite a surprise, but at least the waiting ends
I've been waiting all night to feel like myself again
'cause in the daytime I commit crimes of acting like I'm fine
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT
do you read loud and clear?
you don't, but I wish you were here
'cause every day is such a misery
without somebody here for me
is it enough for me to be a nobody?
'cause alone or with a girl or guy
won't suffice to keep me occupied
Mr. Machine man, what's gotten you so militant?
for target practice you're destroying my sentiments
and I can't reload fast enough to prepare the next shot
why can't you be something different than this?
you've made me turn on myself and my life as a pacifist
couldn't you be so kind as to put me out of my misery?