IF ONLY YOU KNEW
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I wish that you could see how I’ve grown
I wish you knew how easy it is for me to not lose hope
‘cause hope is all I’ve done since I last heard from you, it seems
I’ve grown so much
I just wish you could see
I wish you knew just how much I have changed
I hardly recognize myself, even from yesterday
how funny, how strange how I can’t help but to keep running away
I wish you knew
just how much I have changed
but it’s clear as crystal to me you have no idea
I try so hard, and all to no avail
and I know here won’t make me happy
but I’d rather be unhappy here
a different person
than anywhere else I’d be myself previously
it feels so many years have come and gone
I think you, too, have bettered yourself
and done it on your own
I’m happy and I’m sorry and I’m still a bit confused
I love you so much
if only you knew